Finding out what you love, by simply eliminating your interests
I have recently had an opportunity that sounded interesting to me, but it ended up it wasn’t what I loved. I am so grateful that I have really been able to explore my love with working with kids through my current position. I always thought it would be fun, and I in a way just fell into it. I’ve been interested in working with kids but a few reasons have held me back.
Why don’t I fully do what I love now?
My initial thought when going to school was, if I spent all day with kids I wouldn’t have the energy for the the kids I had of my own one day. My second thought was when I was in a very conservative community setting and it seemed like “the thing to do” for women and being a “going against the grain” person like I am, I simply didn’t want to be like everyone else.
When it Sank In
When this other opportunity came up I had two experiences in the last week that really gravitated me toward working with kids, solidifying my love for working with them. I decided last minute on a day off last week to go out to an old friend's house and befriended her shy 5 year old. I had such a great time talking to her and getting her to open up and when that day was over I thought there was nothing like that feeling, and it made me wish more of my kids classes were running at work
Next was the more spooky experience. I actually went to an interview and as it turns out that interview went quite well. My purpose for doing so was pursuing an interest and also fear of not having a steady income this summer. The next day after the interview I came hope sick, slept for 5 hours after work and actually dreamt about working with kids- kind of threw me for a loop and made me reflect on past ideas I’ve had on doing that independently.
The next steps
I have a fantastic idea to get myself out there in the world, working with kids in a way that I think can be on my own terms. I will dedicate a day a week to work on developing these ideas and testing them out on my elementary age friends I already have:) I also plan to meet with a groo friend who is a teacher to get some insight on that, look into a child development course again and look into volunteering with kids to make sure to get that interaction and keep building my skills. I’m looking forward to these alternatives as opposed to jumping into school right away like I did when I was younger.
The Big Picture
I really congratulate anyone that has found what they love, and especially those who are sticking in there to explore what that may be. I ,myself jumped right into college after literally picking a major out of a catalog, and while I do have a knack for the major I chose, it’s definitely not what’s in my heart. I challenge each of us to evaluate what you really want to do. WHat speaks to you and fuels you all throughout the day. Once you are on to something you will know, and it may even cause you to blog at 4 in the morning:)
Pictured: My two series for kids I will be running at the Northville Art House this Summer, in a addition to organizing the kids events at The Village Workshop.
(let's celebrate these accomplishments before moving on)
As a creative person, of course ideas and imagination are a key part of who I am. I know I am great at ideas, and my level of execution is much lower. Do I get addicted to ideas or is this part of everyone's creative process?
Naturally, every creative process is different but I know for a fact others with excessive ideas tend to be creative. I always get myself down on how caught up in the process I get, I love the fantasy of creativity and conceptualization. Because then I tend to live in la la land and not get anything done- but damn it, this is not a bad trait, it’s a gift!
I was given a mind that snaps off a lot of ideas and a lot of thoughts at the same time. This tends to give me a lot of anxiety and switch topics without notice(that realization comes to you courtesy of my loving boyfriend). But this also probably gets me through a creative process not only uniquely, but quickly.
I am in the middle of all of these creative endeavours. Crocheting ideas, antique selling and shows, making organic bath and beauty products, collaging ideas, and i have a new jewelry idea like every single day. This is ok. I have shows lined up for the summer to try out all of these little ideas.
So what did I learn this evening(well I guess now, morning)? That my brain is awesome, and I’m keeping track of all of these little thoughts. And secondly I need to start devoting a little more time a day to my creatively again. I’ve had some medical issues that have consumed my life, but I’m ready to get this creative brain back to exercising.
Thanks again if anyone read, and to all a creative night:)
What does it mean to be an artist? Is it possible to sell art for a living and make a living at it? These are the questions I keep asking myself. In reality I have only really just broke the tip off the ice burg when it comes to my creativity and art, so how can I be in a position to make that decision for my life.
So, #1: I can call myself an artist. I make things for hobby, to sell and really to just see what these hands can make after my brain thinks it up. For some reason to me there has always been a stigma attached to this- that's all over with now.(so that's settled)
2, I need to stop making things purely to sell them. So to back up here is an overview of what my current reality is...
I left a career field I was miserable in, to pursue a life of creativity that I never dreamed possible. I have held myself back in a lot of situations in life due to confidence issues and things I still struggle with from childhood. So I took this chance to take a huge pay cut, but be happy in life. I Moved back to my home state of Michigan and set my eyes above: because the sky is the limit.
With that being said, I get to work in amazing maker space, learn so much and teach creative classes. I'm continually learning, and growing and get to do one of the funnest jobs on earth. One thing I promised myself I would do is set up my own creative business, hence this website and this blog. I'm still in such a newborn phase of this experience and I already feel myself putting loads of pressure on myself, for what?
I started my etsy (https://www.etsy.com/shop/Anothercutedesign) and website at the end of last year(2015), less than 6 months ago- not long at all. I Already sometimes loose the feeling of just living my creative process. You know, when that idea comes, you loves how it's looking then your brain explodes with an addition and you have a working idea! I know this is a business and the end result is to make money but the real enjoyment is to make the art! To combine my ideas, with the technology I get to master (and use for free) so just go with it.
I can't focus on failures, just learn from them. I can celebrate my friend's success' because I definitely want them by my side when that time really comes for me. A tricky part, and I know is my aesthetic. For something to really sell, it needs to be pop-culture, trendy, something I don't want for my brand. So do I have to be a "sell-out" to "sell out" of my merchandise?
I have so much to explore and to took forward to. I made this change in my life for a reason and I have one chance to make these tasks, and this life count. I will have set-backs, and it may just get down right ugly on here at times but that's all part of the process- my process. I struggle, get upset, then something miraculous happens that I know would not have been born if it wasn't for that struggle. I just need to believe in all of that, and believe in myself
These are the thoughts that are swimming around in my head. No one may ever read this and I'm OK with that. I'm looking forward to looking back on my journey, my connection to my work and becoming the artist I always dreamed I could be.
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