Finding out what you love, by simply eliminating your interests
I have recently had an opportunity that sounded interesting to me, but it ended up it wasn’t what I loved. I am so grateful that I have really been able to explore my love with working with kids through my current position. I always thought it would be fun, and I in a way just fell into it. I’ve been interested in working with kids but a few reasons have held me back.
Why don’t I fully do what I love now?
My initial thought when going to school was, if I spent all day with kids I wouldn’t have the energy for the the kids I had of my own one day. My second thought was when I was in a very conservative community setting and it seemed like “the thing to do” for women and being a “going against the grain” person like I am, I simply didn’t want to be like everyone else.
When it Sank In
When this other opportunity came up I had two experiences in the last week that really gravitated me toward working with kids, solidifying my love for working with them. I decided last minute on a day off last week to go out to an old friend's house and befriended her shy 5 year old. I had such a great time talking to her and getting her to open up and when that day was over I thought there was nothing like that feeling, and it made me wish more of my kids classes were running at work
Next was the more spooky experience. I actually went to an interview and as it turns out that interview went quite well. My purpose for doing so was pursuing an interest and also fear of not having a steady income this summer. The next day after the interview I came hope sick, slept for 5 hours after work and actually dreamt about working with kids- kind of threw me for a loop and made me reflect on past ideas I’ve had on doing that independently.
The next steps
I have a fantastic idea to get myself out there in the world, working with kids in a way that I think can be on my own terms. I will dedicate a day a week to work on developing these ideas and testing them out on my elementary age friends I already have:) I also plan to meet with a groo friend who is a teacher to get some insight on that, look into a child development course again and look into volunteering with kids to make sure to get that interaction and keep building my skills. I’m looking forward to these alternatives as opposed to jumping into school right away like I did when I was younger.
The Big Picture
I really congratulate anyone that has found what they love, and especially those who are sticking in there to explore what that may be. I ,myself jumped right into college after literally picking a major out of a catalog, and while I do have a knack for the major I chose, it’s definitely not what’s in my heart. I challenge each of us to evaluate what you really want to do. WHat speaks to you and fuels you all throughout the day. Once you are on to something you will know, and it may even cause you to blog at 4 in the morning:)
Pictured: My two series for kids I will be running at the Northville Art House this Summer, in a addition to organizing the kids events at The Village Workshop.
(let's celebrate these accomplishments before moving on)